When We Struggle With Our Faith

I know I should not struggle with my faith but I have been recently. My faith needs to be strong given what I do, and being who I am. Am I perfect? No, I am not. But I am still a work in progress. I am still a little rough around the edges but that doesn't make me any less of being who I am. There has been trouble on every side, one thing after another, it has been enough to make me want to give up, but I know that I cannot give up. Yes, life can be hard at times. Troubles come unexpectedly but we have to pick our battles to fight.

One thing I am sure of is that I have felt so alone. I have not felt God’s presence and it is very frightening to me when I can't feel His presence, my faith dwindles. I love God, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit, they are the reason I am still here. I know my heart was broken Tuesday evening when I didn't feel His presence in the place where we were. It seemed like I was not going to make it through the rest of the day.

I was in tears so bad I could hardly catch my breath. I depend on God. I depend on Jesus, and I depend on the Holy Spirit to be there for us. My faith was very weak on Tuesday afternoon, but I know that God forgives me. I am going to read Hebrews and draw strength from my ancestors. Well, sleep is calling me. I am mentally tired. Until next time, God bless everyone.