Going Through The Change of Life

When I was young I didn't have a care in the world. I didn't think about anything that I was not interested in. I didn't think about my life-changing when I became older. All I wanted to do was live my life doing what I was interested in doing. I wanted to be happy.

Now that I am older, I am a grandmother. My life has changed drastically. I decided to go back to school to continue my education. I still have dreams and goals that I want to see come true and accomplish.

Looking back over my life, I see things that I could have done differently. I see things that I should not have done. I see things that I could have improved upon. I never thought the years would go by so fast. I wish I could turn back the hands of time and do things the right way. Do I have any regrets? Maybe. Whatever they may be, they were not important.

I am moving forward in my life. I know that going through a change in life is an emotional factor in my journey. I am edgy, cranky, and moody. I don't sleep well, and I sweat terribly. I was not ready for all of this. I don't know how to accept this. I don't like this at all. I know it is a part of life but I wasn't ready to experience this yet. I don't think I can ever get accustomed to this. Half of my life is gone. I am fifty years old now. I have to work the rest of my life just to have anything. My life ruined my life. Hopefully, I will finish my books, get my degrees, and work for myself. I can still be successful. Things can still turn around for the better in my life.

Taking this one day at a time is very hard because I know that this struggle for me is real. Right now I am not happy at all. I am angry. I don't like this emotional rollercoaster. I just want to be normal. I want the stress, depression, and anxiety to go away. I don't want to deal with it. I think I will be alright. I just need time to adjust to this new part of my life. Well, I am going to relax now. Until next time, stay positive.🌹